Today as I wake-up everything on me feel that had the right to be crabby....Asher wake up at 4:30 am, the dog was crying the whole night, I thought that I have had sleep an extra hour just to discover that it was a lie and to top it off snow...tons of snow falling from the sky. Let's just say that it was't the smooth beginning I was hoping for my beginning of the week.
I sort try (heavy on the sort) to have a good attitude and as I serve Asher and myself breakfast. I grab my little devotional book and read about God's willingness and unwavering desire to bless His people...I feel his little whisper right away in my ear telling me that today he wanted to go out of his way to bless me WHHAAATTT? Do you think that the day I was the most perfect, that I have fulfill all my christian "to do" crap will be the day he whisper such a gentle message to me but NO! HE CHOOSE TODAY! the day I have secret thoughts of strangling my dog and my toddler while they took away my sleep, the day I felt like giving my husband a bad attitude just for the simple fact that he gets to go out of the house and I need to spend the rest of the day with a toddler and a chihuahua, the day that I have such a rebellious attitude inside of my heart.
I felt right away my body get soft and my eyes quickly fill with tears. Tears of shame for my attitude and gratefulness for this Jesus I believe in. For this Jesus that is my friend and lover. Days like today I so grateful that I have a God that loves me not matter what, and no matter what is going through my heart, mind and soul he is always ready to take me in.
Thank you. For your love and kindness to this spirit today and always.
"Gratitud" is the Spanish word meaning thankfulness (like the English word gratitude). I have been pondering this morning all the things in my life for which I am grateful. I have come to realize that many of them I take for granted everyday:
Having food and actually choosing which foods I want to eat.
Having a comfortable home and bed
The privilege of having a baby
Enough clothes to wear everyday and plenty to give away
Not being cold at night (Darjeeling, India taught me about this one)
Family, Friends and an AMAZING YWAM community that loves and cares for my family and I
And probably so much more that I am forgetting!
This coming Holiday season I want to allow God to interrupt me, and even when everything around us is yelling at us BUY MORE, GET MORE, YOU NEED THIS, YOU DON'T HAVE ENOUGH...
I want him to fill my heart with enormous "Gratitud" for all that I DO HAVE.